Sometimes, I wonder if it applies to me too. I wonder if the phrase – “too late to go back”, holds true for me too.
Maybe I have changed so much, pretended so long, lied so deep and come so far – that there is no going back. And maybe there never was…ever since I set foot on this path.
It’s going to be like this forever. I am going to be like this forever. And I am gonna go to bed each night, every night and try to scour deep within myself in search of myself but in vain. Because I no longer remember what I look for. I no longer remember who I was or…who I am. I no longer am me.
I am a shell of lies and pretenses and falsehood. I am a fake.