I read a shamefully less amount of books this month. So just kill me already, because it’s not like I was super busy or something, I was just super slumpy and I decided to be lazy. Pat on the back for that. But I read five books, and before you praise me for that, let me tell you that out of those five books, three were ARCs, out of which two were children’s fiction books which had a whole lot of pictures, and a less lot of writing, and the third one was a middle grade, which was also part of my first blog tour! So, that was something. (sighs) And the only good book I read was Cemetery boys, and I feel like I read it like years ago XD. And the last book was The Giver which was uh….fine.
And I am not feeling very well :(( I am so tired of hearing the news of the death of soo many people all over the country! COVID is spreading like wildfire, and people are falling like dry leaves in the autumn. Immediate Lockdown has been put into effect, and people can get out only for selected periods of time. School is online as expected, and exams are postponed infinitely. Everything is a mess . There isn’t enough beds in the hospitals – three patients in one single bed. There isn’t enough place or time to even honor the dead. The fallen are being burned in playgrounds! Vaccination Centre’s are out of vaccinations! And dying patients are out of oxygen! It is all very scary. So many of my friends are in mourning – every single person around me has lost someone beloved. Yesterday, one of my friends lost her father, day before someone lost his mother and so forth. It is so scary now. Stay Strong! And wear your masks!
Ｔｈａｔ ｗａｓ ｄｅｐｒｅｓｓｉｎｇ.
I need some energy and positivity right now! So, I am going to go ahead and share some stuff *whisper yells* good news with you guys, because people in my real life don’t seem to get my excitement about these stuffs! They just look at me like – bruh, you good? and give me judgmental looks. But, I am hoping that you lovely people will get it!
gσσ∂ ηєωѕ ηυмвєя σηє:
i got my first physical arc!
So, many publishers and authors have reached out to me before, and offered to send me their books for reviewing, but they always end up sending me an e-copy when they find out that I stay in Asia, because international shipping and stuff. But at the end of March, a publisher reached out to me and offered to send me a physical copy, and I was so sure that he was going to send a no, along with an e-copy. But there I was, taking a break from studying at around 2.30 a.m. (I prefer studying at night) when I suddenly got this e-mail from a US postal service, that a package has been shipped to me from Mesa, Arizona. And despite hating the resurrection trope so much, I died and died again. I mean ahhhhhh. So, earlier this week I got the book, and it’s soo pretty guys! The writer was so so kind to send a bookmark, a short letter of thanks, and he even sent me three artworks of his book! When I opened the package I was like –
Ｃａｎ ｙｏｕ ｈｅａｒ ｍｅ ｓｃｒｅａｍｉｎｇ?
Thank you so so much! I can’t wait to share the book, the artwork and all the stuff with you! I am not a great photographer, but I will do my best! I still can’t believe it! Also, the book is about dragons!
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i got the top reviewer badge!
I was just bored and checking through my NetGalley stuffs and all, updating my profile and stuff, and I know it’s a weird thing to do when you are bored but that’s when I saw it and I was like omgf! I literally refreshed the page twice and logged in again, just to be sure lol. But it was there. It was effing there, staring me at the face, pointing it’s finger and going hahaah gotch ya! But seriously though, I couldn’t believe it. But it made me so so happy, I am gonna go and cry now. There were times when I forced myself to read the ARCs that I had requested ’cause well – decency, and I made sure to get everything up on time. I put aside books that I wanted to read and prioritized these books, because commitments. And I feel like I have finally done it!
Ｆｅｌｔ ｌｉｋｅ ａ ｓｐｅｅｃｈ ＸＤ
It was hard. *sniffles* This badge means a lot to me, because I am building up my profile and stuff, and so thank you soo much to Netgalley, all the publishers, and the authors for everything really. But honestly, I owe so much to you guys! There wouldn’t really be any ARCs to review, if not for you lovely people.
That was way too dramatic, right?
reαdy ғor tнe αɴɴoυɴceмeɴt?
Ｉ ｎｅｅｄ ｓｏｍｅ ｍｕｓｉｃ ｆｏｒ ｔｈｉｓ.
I am really scared and nervous to tell you. I feel like I will end up jinxing it, but you know what? I am just gonna go with this gut feeling. So, *takes a deeeeep breathe* so, *internally screaming* so, the thing is *hell* I am writing a book of my own.
Externally screaming: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I can’t believe that I fucking said it! So, I had always had these characters in mind, who have been my friends, since I was very little. Imaginary of course. But I feel like, I have grown a lot, and so have they, and it’s time that I give them a life – it’s time for me to let them breathe and give them a story, so that’s what I have decided to do. I am already working on my first draft and I am working on it. It’s not easy, especially with all the online school stuff and final year and not to mention so so so much screen time. But thankfully it’s flowing guys. It’s flowing.
I can’t really tell you anything at this point, because I am so so scared that someone will steal my story or something. And my story might not be that good, but someone can easily take the plot and make it something big right? I am terrified. I trust you guys, but what if some unwanted stranger comes knocking?👀
My biggest fear used to be lizards, but now it is story theft. lol. I know I am acting paranoid, but *I have no words* I just am.
Only two of my blogger friends know about it – Nehal and Panna, and I trust these two wonderful souls (aka sweet lil’ idiots), and I have of course shared it with them. But I am so scared that after putting this out, I won’t be able to work on it, but I want to. I want to get this story out. I want to get it all out. And, so – gut feeling. Yeah, that’s something I have been telling myself for the past week.
Ｗｈａｔ ｄｏ ｙｏｕ ｔｈｉｎｋ?
Oh and I named this post as a Wrap-Open because, instead of like wrapping up a month, this felt more like new beginnings and shit. So yeah. Stay safe guys. It’s getting worse with each passing day, but you are strong. You will get through this. If you are having a hard time, I hope this post made you smile. If you have lost someone dear, then my condolences. And happy May! Seriously, hoping that this month goes better, and the death count goes down, and the number of smiles I see each day goes up, because fucking masks won’t let me. (By the way, is it just me or do you guys smile, and then realize that the person in front can’t really see you, ’cause mask? It’s so damn annoying.)
Ｓｔａｙ Ｓｔｒｏｎｇ ♡
Not a lot of book stuff, for a book blog post XD. And I know my theme is all colorful and flowers, and I am not changing it, but I just felt like going monochromatic today! And I am pretty sure that you have realized by now that gifs are my new obsession.