- whimsy: storyteller -

the text.

hey, sorry i haven’t texted you back. i’ve been anxious, i think? i can’t breathe and depressed is a word thrown around too lightly these days. i haven’t had time to catch up on socials and stuff, you know how life gets. i feel like a flute. no matter how much energy i pour in, i just can’t make the music stay. i want to say the void in me inspires me to make music, but truthfully, it’s draining me. the most basic things are beyond me now – like texting you back or heating the food before dinner. the weather has been beautiful, right? perfect for some badminton games if you’re up for it.

yesterday, i felt shivers shoot up my spine, my body tremble, my vision blur, and i felt like i would die. quora told me it was a panic attack. did you read any good books recently? i started reading this book that i really resonated with but then i fell asleep and did not wash my hair for three days. i focus on how red the sunset is and then wish i could see the red inside me fade along with it. but if i tell you, you would want to unravel the mystery behind all of this. maybe a logical solution, or a theoretical observation. i wish i could dig deeper to find a tangible reason for you to validate my fucking feelings, but i am just…i just need to sleep. how are you? i hope you’re well. i hope you know that i am not a liar. let’s hang out sometime soon!


*so, i was arranging my bookshelf when i found some of my childhood favorites, and yes, one of them is the twilight series. and i don’t quite remember specifically which book but i found this letter that jacob had written to bella. and although it was a very i guess unimportant letter, i found the style very haunting and wanted to try it out for myself. thanx for reading. <33

34 thoughts on “the text.

  1. Why did this…um, feel so personal? Like you were actually speaking to me, for some reason? I don’t know why it felt like that, lol.

    It’s beautiful, ghostie 😭. Really beautiful!! I loved it, the last few lines especially!! And yeah, being the horrible texter that you are, don’t bother about not texting back (i.e. if this is non-fiction). We’re here, no matter what, and it doesn’t matter. And we’ll make it out alive. YOU’ll make it out alive! And just…God, this was so deep, I can’t 😭💖.

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  2. Ash, this was so relateable. It spoke to me in a way I don’t think anything ever has.
    The flute part, that was the perfect analogy ever. I am speechless.
    This was just absolute perfection and soo deep❤❤

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  3. That was deep to another level…I read that 3 times.. Once the whole text, the second time only the ones which weren’t strike-throughed and finally the strike throughed ones. Just hits differently. Idk if this is fiction or not but it was relatable for some reason…*me realizing how on earth I have never been able to put into words the days I feel like this…*
    Oh it is fiction? Yes…oh okay, it says in the tags. But there is still a lot of deep meanings into this I can’t explain. Beautiful

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  4. Did you know that wordpress can not post your own comment? 🙂 I liked yours and replied and now I opened this to reply to everyone else and 🙂 ANYWAYS NEHU BABY TAKE A LOOK AT THE TAGS: ITS FICTION!!!!!!!!! 😤

    also thank you nehu 😭💜✨ I am so glad that you liked it. And lmao I am a horrible texter but this has nothing to do with me. I just wanted to try out this style and this seemed like a fun way. Aww thank you 😭😭😭

    And dude i do worry abt not being able to reply back to you cuz YOU MATTER A LOT TO ME. ALSO HAVEN’T I TOLD U ITS A LONG STORY 🙂 I SHALL GAIN ME FREEDOM AT MIDNIGHT TONIGHT. PRAY TELL I HOPE YOU ARE ONLINE. 😭

    ALSO THANK YOU SOO MUCH FOR BEING SUCH AN AMAZING PERSON 💜🤩

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  5. replying to this comment like 17 days later because i had no idea what to say because that’s how much your comment means to me. <33 i am so glad that this resonated with you. to be honest, it's not completely fiction. i mean rarely any works of fiction are completely fiction, right? there are indeed quite a few meanings to this and i will leave that to your speculation because its fun that way. thank you so much, Hermione. i have no words to explain how hard your comment hit me. it certainly made me feel less alone and for that thankx again. <33

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